scattered thoughts that i have.

i feel like i don't even exist.
my mind moves fast.
so fast.

there are a lot of things
i haven't figured out.
like what i am doing with my life.
or what outfit to wear for the day.

i am all over the place.
but never moving.

i want a cactus.
& a globe.

there is really good music out there.
i am really in love with the smashing pumpkins
again.

do you realize

time doesn't stop for any one.

but love does.

that's a painful and burning thought.

but it makes you- forces you- to grow.

i woke up one day

& decided a change of pace 

was necessary.

i smell like  onions

& sweet potato fries.

constantly.

the walking dead.

the walking dead.

the walking dead.

do any of you homies have a smashbook?

if so, lets smash it up, together.

smashbooks are cool.

i'll bet you they get even cooler pretty soon.

like everything else in my life.

the sunshine is nice.

huzzah for a glimpse 

into happiness.

i am very, very grateful 

for the change of seasons.

i work in the pieshake parlor again.

famous people come.

i never know who they are.

because i only love neil diamond.

i am pretty lost right now.

that's kind of a hard thing.

but.

whatever.

so is life.

i read a very nice quote today.

its is  helpful.

it goes like this:

He died not for men,

but for each man.

if each man had 

been the only man

made, He would have 

done no less.

.cs lewis.

love is ridiculous.

but not God's love.

God's love is real.