hi, i've been gone for awhile. this is why.

i'm removed.

i'm pleading for escape.
she's not coming.
it isn't normal,
what i've become.

in a day or two,
i tell myself.
in a day or two,
it'll be okay.

i drown myself
in tea
& black ink.


i'm a big girl now. i know what i should be doing, what i should be striving to become but i don't want it. i lost it all, all the want & desire of the girl i was. i can't promise the girl, the woman, i am becoming is a good one, but she's the best i can manage right now.
life is what it is.
i just hope it straightens out & turns itself into a good one.

also. my best buddy, tay, he blogs. check it out billymoney.blogspot.com 
he's funny.