college tip #355

we entered a world alone.

& we'll someday leave it.

but my only wish is that i'll leave it with you.

sometimes. when i'm happy, i think things like this.^ in my head.

& don't worry. college bites. the learning is good. i love the learning. i like the schedule. i like knowing what's going to happen next. but i don't like a one upper or a smart aleck. though i obviously fall under both of those categories which is perhaps the very reason i hate them. my life is good. i've had a few shaky moments this week but nothing you can't overcome by a nice heart to heart that begins with bending to your knees. life isn't always executed according to your plan, its what God wants not you. & sometimes its hard as hell to have to accept that. but you do. you have to.

fear & anticipation & worry have overcome my body. i constantly think about the future. about growing old. i anticipate change with fear but with a smile. i wouldn't say i embrace it, but i'll try to accept it. i'm learning to fend for my own, to love, to teach, & to listen.

& i'm feeling pretty good about it so far. heard a good quote recently. one that sums up the college board exactly:

they'll come after you. just

for the ugly fun of tearing

you apart.

.farley mowat.

also. i've got a college tip too. that tip is this...read. read your little heart out. read everything. read anything. read people's minds, read menus in the restaurant, read the look on your professors face, read the nutrition guide on your go gurt. for heaven's sake. just read.

that's all.

word.