just thinking.

when i get to heaven. before the resurrection, i am asking two questions. i think about these two questions all the time. the second one always changes. the first doesn't.

question #1.

may i please have bonnie tyler's voice? even just a smidge of it? i've gone my whole life without being able to sing. can i please just rock "total eclipse of the heart?" give every one up here a good show? i swear we'll do duets, bonnie and i.

and question #2. (for the time being.)

why in the...did you ever create mosquitos? i am quite sure there is a valid reason. and i totally understand that they are part of the food chain and all. but i would just like an explanation. you know, to make myself feel better.

also. listen. in about a week. my life changes. i leave the grove and i head off for a life of my own. the excitement is growing. just a little. the freedom of being able to go to the library and read my life away on the quiet floor for heavy readers makes my skin crawl with a kind of excitement only love brings. it seems the worlds i read about are the only ones that even make sense anymore. and i feel that something big is coming. what? exactly. i've no idea. but i'll pack my books and my sweaters, a fresh pair of socks and a tea kettle. and i'll say good bye to the valley i have grown to love and i'll find miss mandi. wherever she is. whoever she is. she's out there and these next few years are dedicated to making her happy.