congrats are in order.

i woke up this morning and went to college.

i put on a backpack.

said my prayers.

read my book of mormon.

checked my own mailbox.

took a deep breath.

& went.

i've got a pit in my stomach. it has been there since i left home. i'm still terribly homesick. eating the bare minimum to survive. drinking water from a mason jar. i am avoiding the kitchen because cleaning up is a waste of time. i met an asian that doesn't even eat fish. not only does he not eat it, he doesn't even like it. i didn't even think that possible. i tried out math today. math is not my forte. but. my teacher and i are going to be good friends. i told him so. i still cry everytime i talk to my family.

but. i've been on my knees more than ever before. and it seems to help.

i went to the library and read. did homework. or at least i pretended to.

i cried when i heard my grandpa's voice. and when my mom agreed to make banana bread.

i've decided that my rotten attitude makes everything rotten.

but.

it's life.

and so it goes.